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About Me
Name:Becky Age: 13 Birthday: March 19 E-Mail: HckGrl13@cs.com Stuff TagBoard Links AIM Convos Quiz Results Currently... Eating Sugar Cookies Drinking Water Watching Nothing Listening To Toxic by Britney Spears Wearing My PJ's. Reading The Westing Game Crushing Brian & Eric & Justin & Jeremy Obsessing Linkin Park |
Young and Hopeless
The Blog March 8, 2004  blabbed @ 7:49 p.m.~ I haven't updated for a while... Oh well, not like anyone reads this shit... LOL... There hasn't been anything to write about. Still depressed, well, sorta. Olivia's still grounded. Brian got AOL again but I haven't talked to him on it yet... And I've been turned down by justin and Brian (many times). So, yeah. Same old, same old. Went to the mall on Saturday because the kids wanted to see Strawberry Shortcake and the Care Bears LOL. I got some pretty cute stuff. Well, I'm gonna go because there's nothing to write about... LataComment February 25, 2004 blabbed @ 2:54 p.m.~ Still depressed... blabbed again @ 9:11 p.m.~ Well, my day has gotten a little better since afterschool. I was talking to my ex boyfriend, Justin. He's really nice. Melissa must have set the whole thing up. We both thought we hated each other, which isn't true. We never should have broke up. We're so alike! Oh well... later...
CommentFebruary 23, 2004 blabbed @ 4:21 p.m.~ Been too depressed to update. My life sucks. Movies was NOT fun. It was a good movie though. I had popcorn stuck in my ass the whole time because Colton threw it at me. I hate Colton. I told Brian I didn't want Colton to come with us, but no... "Oh Becky, please? We would invite you if we went!" Yeah, right. Anyway, Brian was mean to me because he brought Colton. That's exactly why I didn't want him to come. Every time they get together, they gang up on me and call me fat. He's nice one-on-one, but aren't all guys? Even LJ is (I don't like him anymore). It's when they get together that they're assholes. OK I'm ay too pissed to write anymore. Lata.Comment February 19, 2004 blabbed @ 4:34 p.m.~ What a depressing day. I just want to crawl in a hole and DIE. Or kill Chelsea. Yeah, that's better. Kill Chelsea. LJ asked her out today and she said yes... I'm so depressed. I told LJ good luck when he went to ask her out and that I was happy for him when he came back and told me she said yes. So I'll feel better when I shoot her and stuff her dead body into a fucking dumpster. OK I feel better now. LOL.Well, at least I have the movies to look forward to on Sunday. Melissa, Brian, one of Melissa's friends (maybe her boyfriend) are going to see 50 First Dates. So, yeah. I'm gonna got out with Brian. I don't know when he'll be ready for another relationship, but it better be soon, because I want it to be soon. Yeah soo... I'm too depressed to write more. Later. Comment February 18, 2004 blabbed @ 2:58 p.m.~ I definitely did update yesterday, I started anyway, but I didn't have enough time to save it and everything, so yeah... It wasn't much of an update anyway. I'm doing a good job at updating regularly again... LOL... Internet is still broken at Dad's. I'm going to save the layout onto a floppy and bring it here to my grandparent's or something... I don't know...Last night I went to a Family Fun Night for Sydney and Maddie. The theme was Nursery Rhymes. Brian's mom is their teacher, and she knows me pretty well, so she just invited me to help out, which was fun. The only thing was, I was downstairs and Brian was upstairs. It was cute though. I was with Kelly in the room behind the Sanctuary. Ours was "To market to market to buy a fat pig. Home again home again jiggety jig." LOL. The kids got all dressed up and came to me to buy a stuffed pig with the plastic money. It lasted a long time though. At about 8:00, I went up with Brian ("Jack be nimble Jack be quick, Jack jump over the candle stick" LOL) and hung out up there for a while. We were giving each other candy hearts since we haven't seen each other since Valentine's Day. Actually, we haven't seen each other for 3 weeks. So, yeah. We walked home together, but nothing happened (unfortunatly). We were talking about the guys I've kissed without my dad knowing it. (Brian, George, and Justin) Well, I g2g. Comment February 16, 2004 blabbed @ 2:28 p.m.~ Well, it's President's Day so thank GOD no school. I was talking to LJ online last night. He said he was making out with his girlfriend Chelsea on Saturday at the dance. Boys can be so freakin STUPID. Does he really think I care about what he and his girlfriend do? My God... He knows I like him. Brian did that too over the summer. People are so annoying... That's all for now. Maybe some later.Comment February 14, 2004 blabbed @ 10:34 a.m.~ Internet's still down at Dad's. So I can't get the layout for Frosty Shimmer up yet. This layout's getting REALLY old... Merry X-Mas in February... Oh well.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Yeah, right. I don't have a boyfriend so what's the freakin point of Valentine's Day? Melissa might hook me up with her ex, but whatever. Well, for a while, i thought I did, to the dance tonight (which I'm not going to) but I don't. Apparently, LJ gave Tommy the password to his AIM account, and Tommy signed on under LJ's and I sent LJ a Candy Gram. I didn't put my name, thought. I know that he would go around and show everybody in the school and my life would be even worse of a living Hell there. But anyway, he came over to our lunch table and was like, "You sent me a candy gram." I said, "No I didn't." he said, "Yes you definitely did" and I said "No I definitely didn't" and then he walked away. Then Nicole was like, "Good acting." Yeah... that's pretty much it. Comment January 31, 2004 blabbed @ 9:38 a.m.~ Hey everyone! My internet's down at my dad's, so I haven't been able to update very much over the past month. Good news: Y-n-H is getting a new name sometime soon with a layout that might actually get me hosted. The site will be called Frosty Shimmer, and, uh, yeah.Well, recently I got LJ's screen name. He's only allowed on during the weekends, so I'm waiting for him to come on. I really, really like him now, way more than last year. His eyes are just so freakin... blue... Brian's being ignored for a while. I don't know how long yet, but I'm really pissed off at him, so it could befor a long while. He won't stop calling me fat! I knw I'm not fat, but coming from him... It's only because of that bitch Colton, probably. I should probably slap him a few times more. Fun. We got our report cards yesterday. My dad said before that I would be grounded if I got a C until the next report card.I got a C in Reading, but he didn't say anything, thank God. The good thing is, I get $5 for each A, so that's $40 :D Let's see... The funneyest thing happened a week or two ago! LJ was being an annoying fucking asshole all day. He came up to me at the end of the day and punched me for no reason! I turned around and slapped him, and Mrs. Petersen caught me. It's sooo funny when she gets mad, her eyes bulge out of her head. So, yeah. It was funny. Olivia just signed on, so I'm gonna go talk to her. Comment January 1, 2004 blabbed @ 2:01 p.m.~ Happy New Year all! I've been grounded, so I couldn't update. Anyways, not much going on around here. I got a ton of makeup for Christmas, clothes, about $150 in gift certs... just stuff. It was a pretty good Christmas, excpet that my mom wouldn't get me a cell phone :'(... Oh well not much else to say... later.Comment December 18, 2003 blabbed @ 5:00 p.m.~ I made candy houses at school today. That was really fun. I really don't have that much to say today. Not much happened. Oh yeah, we had a math test today that I know I failed. If I didn't get a 0% then I got a 20%. It was really hard. I totally don't understand word problems. No word from MD. He probably signed off before I got here at 4:30. Well... Nothing else to say.Comment December 17, 2003 blabbed @ 3:21 p.m.~ Well, no luck with Dan, and no word from Mountain Dew today. Yet. He won't be home for another hour or so. Today was actually a pretty good day. I didn't get made fun of as much as usual, if I go back and think about it. We had Reconciliation, which is really boring for me because I'm not Catholic.English was fun today. I sit across from LJ, which I like, I guess. He can be a little... weird. Like today when he asked me if I planned to have sex before or after I got married... that REALLY freaked me out. But also very nice! Like he also said today that I have a really fun smile! I'm really starting to like him again... and he knows it. Plus he hates Maura now... LOL. I'd rather go out with Brian (MD) though... Hopefully he'll get home quick. Talking with him is always fun. I found out last night, but forgot to say, that I'm related to Brandon. His uncle married my Aunt Peggy's daughter or something like that... So I told everyone at the table and they started cracking up! When Nicole told him, Brandon's face was sooooooooooooo funny! Well, maybe I'll write later. Maybe not. Comment December 16, 2003 blabbed @ 8:56 p.m.~ Okay, well, everyone went to a Christmas program for Jessie and Alex, and I got stuck with Maddie and Sydney. They were pretty bad at first, but once I found something for them to do, it was a lot easier.Well, no luck with Mountain Dew yet. He just won't give in. God, EVERYONE knows we like each other! It's total crap that he's not ready for another relationship! He was totally flirting with me about the mistletoe and other things today. At camp, there had been another girl who liked him besides me, and we were talking about her, even though she's my friend so I feel bad about that... But he said that he liked me better than her, which was cool. It was a really long conversation, but I wish it had lasted longer. If you want to know the convo, E-Mail/IM me and I MIGHT give it to you. Well, gotta go. Maybe later, doubt it. Comment December 15, 2003 blabbed @ 9:56 a.m.~ Well, our school had a 2 hour delay today! I was sooooooooooo happy about that, because I didn't feel like dealing with gay Dan and Garret today. They're on my nerves, always making fun of how I like not gay Dan! Anyway, whatever, because my dad asked me to stay home and help out with Maddie! She's sick and has the flu. She's had it all weekend. The docter says it should be gone by Wednesday.I was talking to Mountain Dew this morning for a few minutes before he went to school. He doesn't have a snow day, and when I told him I was staying home, he told me I suck LOL... My neighbors will be here any second. They want to show me what they want me to do while they're away. I'm going to help take care of their cats for a week or so for 25 BUCKS A DAY!!! Maybe some later. Peace out. Comment December 14, 2003 blabbed @ 12:46 p.m.~ OMG last night was so much fun! My sister, my cousin, and me were making up a funny "TV show" about balancing a bird (You know the ones with the wieghts on their wings so they balance?) and we kept doing funny stuff, like really preppy, hillbilly, nerd, etc... It was so funny! I had my aunt rolling around on the floor laughing with my impression of a preppy girl who thought it was a fashion show (OLMG! I broke a nail!!) LOL... Then we "older people" played a game of Pictionary. It was a lot of fun because our team was so terrible it was funny!! I got the word coal so I drew a devil kid, a stocking, a big blac blob, and Santa putting the big black blob into the stocking. It was a really good picture, but my teamates couldn't figure it out! Then near the end, my mom was so drunk she drew the stupidest looking things and expected Aunt Rachel to figure out what they were. I was so hyped up on 6 cans of good ol' Mountain Dew that I couldn't hold the pen steady. My stomach still hurts from all that MD. LOL... On to today at church :'( Well, I gave Brian his Limp Bizkit CD, and he liked it I guess. I mean, it was what he asked for so whatever, but I was expecting him to ask me out. I was hoping he would anyway. But he didn't. I meant to mention this on Saturday but I forgot about it, so here goes. Before I asked Brian out online I had gone to meet him at his bus stop because I had to show him something. We walked to my house and stood behind the fence and talked for a little while before I asked him to close his eyes. I pulled out a piece of mistletoe from my pocket and I bet you can guess what I did. He did it though, which surprised me. Afterwards he told me I'm a good kisser, which was cool. So, I g2g do some chores... I'll update if anything important happens between me and Mtn Dew... Comment December 13, 2003 blabbed @ 9:11 a.m.~ I know it's really early and I'm not usually up at 9, but I'm expecting a phone call from Olivia, so here I am.I'm going to my grandma's house later for my stepdad, Brian, my grandma, and my cousin Katie's birthday party at around 5 or 6:00, so that'll be fun. My mom and I are IMing each other about what to get Grandma. We're getting Brian some war movie (I wanted to get him the Hoobastank CD No Reason, but Mom realized that I wanted to listen to it to LOL). We already got Katie her present. It was a My Scene doll with a motorcycle, or something like that. I'm hoping Brian (MD Brian) will sign on today... I'm waiting for his answer. Hell, I've been waiting since 1st grade. Hopefully he'll finally go out with me... I might add some more later! Comment December 12, 2003 blabbed @ 7:42 p.m.~ OMG I know I said I'd update but I've been busy... OK, so today, I asked Mountain Dew out because he finally broke up with his girlfriend!!! I'm so excited! He said he'd have to think about it because he's not ready for another relationship yet, so I'm really excited!By the way, you like the new layout? Please leave comments on the tagboard. Personally, I think it's pretty, but not as pretty as the last one... Later!! Comment November 10, 2003 blabbed @ 4:46 p.m.~ Holy crap I haven't updated for EVER! I've been really busy. I need to change the layout in 5 days and I haven't even started yet... Oh well I'll figure out something... Um other than that nothing really. We went to Gettysburg on Friday for a field trip. It was a lot of fun but nothing really worth writing... Ummm... Nope that's it! Anyway, I'll try to start writing again sooo laterz!!Comment October 28, 2003 blabbed @ 9:44 p.m.~ I know I haven't been writing lately... Oh well... I just got back from my soccer game. We're the worst team in the league and we beat the best team!! YAY US! Anywayz... I hung around after for the second game. I didn't watch any of it though. I was too busy talking to people. I met some girl named Jessica. She's pretty nice. And I was wrestling with Eric to try to get his hat. Funness...Comment October 25, 2003 blabbed @ 1:08 p.m.~ Blah I'm bored... I took a quiz today. I'll make an extra page for quiz results... I had a bad day yesterday, but I don't feel like writing about it now... You are most like black. Very understated and withdrawn at times, people need only to get to know you to understand your full beauty. {now with pics} (.) --- (:) --- What Color are You? --- (:) ---(.) {now with pics} brought to you by Quizilla Comment October 21, 2003 blabbed @ 5:17 p.m.~ Just got done watching "A Walk to Remember". I love that movie. I talked to Jeremy today. About the math test. WOW, I sure am doing great... Brian's going to my soccer game on Thursday. I can't believe he said okay. I wonder if he's still with his girlfriend?Mike was on my nerves today. He kept looking at me and telling me to stop staring at Mark. Okay then... Why the heck would I stare at Mark? Then he asked me if I liked Koger and I was like, "If it'll make you shut the heck up, yeah I like Koger, now GO AWAY!" What an idiot, he thought I was telling the truth. Honestly, in that school if you say hi to someone of the opposite sex you automatically like them... Jesus Christ... Umm.. I don't think there's anything else to say in my boring life...OH! Student Council elections tomorrow! I know I'm gonna lose, so it really doesn't matter. The candidates for president gave their speeches today. Mari's was so gay. "I don't know how else to start this speech so I'll start with a quote...'some stupid thing about being unique' and some of you don't like me because I'm different and some of you do but I really don't care I just hope you won't choose not to vote for me because it is a popularity vote no matter what we do so..." All in one breath. Just like that. I used to be her only friend at this school, then she deserted me. I guess she never really was my friend. I can't wait until school tomorrow to see Jeremy... Comment October 20, 2003 blabbed @ 4:07 p.m.~ Wasn't allowed on all weekend. Didn't ask Jeremy for his AIM SN... I don't know why, it's not like I'm asking him to be my boyfriend... not yet anyway.I did ask Katie if he had a girlfriend. I was like, "Uhhh.. don't tell him I asked, I mean I know he's your friend and all, but don't tell him I asked... Does Jeremy have a girlfriend?" She laughed and was like, "No, he's a loser!" OOOOOOOoooo kay then... Comment October 16, 2003 blabbed @ 7:37 p.m.~ OMG I whimped out AGAIN! I kept trying to think of things to say to him that wouldn't sound stupid. I came up with dropping my books. Didn't work the way I wanted it to. I wanted to see if I dropped my books, would he help me pick them up. So I dropped my books. On his foot. Yeah. He helped me pick them up, which is good... but on his foot... Tomorrow I'm gonna ask for his AIM Screen name. If I don't whimp out... again...Man, I'm so screwed in school... in Spanish I have like, a C or D, and in Reading, I have this huge project that I have't even started due tomorrow that my teacher will get really pissed if I don't have it. I'm screwed... Comment October 15, 2003 blabbed @ 7:16 a.m.~ New layout ^^ And I think it's really pretty. I called it "A Glimpse Into the Heavenly". Anyway, I know the lines aren't straight, but it's still pretty.Enough about the layout... Yesterday, I borrowed a pencil from Jeremy in my honors math and science classes. I think he's kinda cute, but I also know I have bad taste in guys, LOL... Anyway, when I was giving it back, I just HAD to be a klutz and drop it. What can go wrong will go wrong... Anyway, I was like "Here's your pencil back. Thanks. By the way, you're Jeremy, right?" (He nodded) "Cool, well, I'm Becky." "Hey Becky," he said. Isn't that like the most amazing thing ever? *dies* Last night when I was making this layout, my sister Sydney was sitting next to me coloring. Every 2 seconds she would say, "Look at this, Becky!" And I would say, "That's great Sydney." Finally, after about a half an hour, I yelled, "IT'S GREAT, OKAY? GO SHOW YOUR MOM!" So I got in trouble and was kicked off the computer for the night... GEES I hate little kids... So ANNOYING... blabbed again @ 5:21 p.m.~ Another boring day... OMG, I whimped out on talking to Jeremy... I don't know why, we barely know each other. I did hang out with all the people from his school, though. They like me, I guess. Way more than the people from my school, anyway. They all hate me, and I hate most of them. I really hate Sara and Caitlin the most though. They always act all concerned about me, while meanwhile they're just trying to get rid of me. Like, "Becky, shouldn't you be handing out fliers?" "Becky, shouldn't you be with your group?" "Becky, why are you eating your dessert before you're done with your nachos?" God I hate them.I'm running for Homeroom Rep. in our Student Council. I know I'm gonna lose, I can't get anyone to vote for me... I don't know who I'm gonna vote for for president. I told Mari that I would vote for her, but she was all stuck-up about it so I'm definitely not voting for her ("Of course you are! You and everyone else!"). Nia's been OK, and so has Lindsay. Josh can forget it, because when I DID like him he turned me down (I really don't know why I liked him). I don't like Maddy because she can be pretty freakin rude, so I'm not voting for her. So it's either Lindsay or Nia. Comment October 13, 2003 blabbed @ 7:02 a.m.~ Gpt grounded again, wanna know why? Because I was doing schooolwork and I promised I wouldn't do anything else. So my friend IMs me and my Away Message says I'm not there because I'm doing my homework and I'm not allowed, so my stepdad comes in and screams at me for doing something besides homework, which I wasn't. So now, my whole freakin AOL account is deleted!! Anyway, I think my dad deleted AIM, so I'm downloading it now. Um, nothing happened really... We lost a soccer game and that's pretty much it. I have to clean my room after school. I'll be on later.Comment October 7, 2003 blabbed @ 4:06 p.m.~ I did start yesterday, but the computer shut down, and I couldn't get back on. Not like anything happened anyway... If you look to the right, you'll see that I added LJ to my crushes, along with some actual stuff. The only thing about him is, he's REAL short. LOL... Plus, I think he's already got a girlfriend anyway... Oh well...I am sooooo mad! I LOVE Good Charlotte, and they're playing at Petersen Events Center (or whatever the hell they're playing at tonight)! My mom was originally gonna take me, but she had school. Brian (my stepdad Brian) wouldn't take me either. Then I got invited to go with my friend Sam, but NO, I wasn't allowed because my mom didn't know her! I'm SO mad right now... School was OK, but real long. The makeup homework isn't taking as long as I thought it would, but it still sucks. Oh well... I'll just copy other peoples' answers! ;) Comment October 5, 2003 blabbed @ 8:46 p.m.~ I totally forgot about this blog! Oops... Well, I just got back from Myrtle Beach earlier today. It was so fun, but I sat out in the sun for HOURS and hardly got any tan! Plus there weren't any guys my age down there, at least none that I saw. No girls either I think, but I wasn't exactly looking...I have no clue how I'm gonna catch up on my schoolwork... There's gonna be SO much, plus I have a ton of overdue stuff... Well, Brian is still with HIS girlfriend, and George is never gonna notice me because I "kiss like a dog"... I'm never gonna get a boyfriend! Nothing else really... my life is sooo boring... Comment September 16, 2003 blabbed @ 4:12 p.m.~ Today was sooo long! I go to a high school for honors math and science, and I was sitting listening to my Trapt CD full blast and minding my own business when this really tall guy walks up to me and goes, "Can you hear your music?" "Yeah," I said. "Well, I can hear it too, so turn it down." I was like, "Ooohh kaaay.." But I did turn down my music though. I went outside right after that, LOL.Anyway... I'm really bored waiting for Emily to come on... George is on, but even when he doesn't have his away message on, he's basically ignoring me. Plus, I found out last night he got back together with his ex, so I'm pissed. Anyway... My Dad embarrassed me so bad on the way home from the high school! He picked us up and started getting all nebby asking about everyone, all the other parents didn't seem to care! Then he started singing "No more monkeys jumping on the bed" really loud and annoying! I WAS SO EMBARASSED!!! I have to go to soccer later... funness. Hope I see Emily... God, I haven't seen her forever! Not like I've seen my BFF Olivia recently-er though... Laterz Comment September 15, 2003 blabbed @ 4:23 PM~ Yayness! A blog! Well, I dunno what to say since I just started it, but uh, I'm stupid, so, whatever. Anywayz... If you look to da left, u can c I'm obsessing over Good Charlotte right now. I'm trying to get my stepdad to take me to the concert on the 7th, but we'll see. Anyway, I like two guys, possibly three. George and Brian I definitly like, and I'm trying to decide if I still like Mike or not. I've liked George for a few weeks, Brian since I was like, 5, and Mike I liked all last year, but he's mean. >:pOkay, so school I guess... Nothing really happened today. People at my school think I like Mark! He's really ugly, and I really don't like him... not like THAT anyway. LJ always walks up to me and like throws food at me saying it's from Mark. I like LJ, but he gets on my nerves sometimes... Comment Credits Layout created by Becky Site Copyrighted © 2003-2004 Becky |
